My Life With Aspergers Syndrome.

I have always had allot of trouble throughout my life with this disorder, Mostly it seems to find a healthy Aspergers Medication for dealing with this horrible Asperger’s Syndrome. See Trial Medications.

A bit about Aspergers:   Asperger's Disorder is a milder variant of Autistic Disorder.   Both Asperger's Disorder and Autistic Disorder are in fact subgroups of a larger diagnostic category.  This larger category is called either Autistic Spectrum Disorders, mostly in European countries, or Pervasive Developmental Disorders ("PDD"), in the United States.  In Asperger's Disorder, affected individuals are characterized by social isolation and eccentric behavior in childhood. There are impairments in two-sided social interaction and nonverbal communication. Though grammatical, their speech may sound peculiar due to abnormalities of inflection and a repetitive pattern. Clumsiness may be prominent both in their articulation and gross motor behavior. They usually have a circumscribed area of interest which usually leaves no space for more age appropriate, common interests. Some examples are cars, trains, French Literature, door knobs, hinges, meteorology, cans, astronomy or history.  The name "Asperger" comes from Hans Asperger, an Austrian physician who first described the syndrome in 1944.

Asperger's Disorder may not be the only psychological condition affecting a certain individual.  In fact, it is frequently together with other problems such as: Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) Oppositional Defiant Disorder (ODD) Depression (Major Depressive Disorder or Adjustment Disorder with Depressed Mood) Bipolar Disorder Generalized Anxiety Disorder Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

( PDD or Autistic Spectrum Disorders) have severe enough inattention, hyperactivity and impulsiveness to meet the diagnostic criteria for ADHD.  Technically, if a child is diagnosed with any of the PDD diagnoses (Autistic Disorder, Asperger's Disorder, PDD-NOS or others), a separate ADHD diagnosis cannot be made.  However, I believe that it is important to recognize the presence of co-existing ADHD since this syndrome can respond to medication treatment, unlike the core PDD symptoms.  When ADHD co-exists with Asperger's Disorder, anger may easily turn to aggression because of the individual's impulsiveness.

Social interaction
Further information: Asperger syndrome and interpersonal relationships The lack of demonstrated empathy is possibly the most dysfunctional aspect of Asperger syndrome. Individuals with AS(Asperger’s) experience difficulties in basic elements of social interaction, which may include a failure to develop friendships or to seek shared enjoyments or achievements with others (for example, showing others objects of interest), a lack of social or emotional reciprocity, and impaired nonverbal behaviors in areas such as eye contact, facial expression, posture, and gesture. Unlike those with autism, people with AS are not usually withdrawn around others; they approach others, even if awkwardly. For example, a person with AS may engage in a one-sided, long-winded speech about a favorite topic, while misunderstanding or not recognizing the listener's feelings or reactions, such as a need for privacy or haste to leave. This social awkwardness has been called "active but odd". This failure to react appropriately to social interaction may appear as disregard for other people's feelings, and may come across as insensitive. The cognitive ability of children with AS often allows them to articulate social norms in a laboratory context, where they may be able to show a theoretical understanding of other people's emotions; however, they typically have difficulty acting on this knowledge in fluid, real-life situations. People with AS may analyze and distill their observation of social interaction into rigid behavioral guidelines, and apply these rules in awkward ways, such as forced eye contact, resulting in a demeanor that appears rigid or socially naive. Childhood desire for companionship can become numbed through a history of failed social encounters. The hypothesis that individuals with AS are predisposed to violent or criminal behavior has been investigated but is not supported by data. More evidence suggests children with AS are victims rather than victimizers. A 2008 review found that an overwhelming number of reported violent criminals with AS had coexisting psychiatric disorders such as schizoaffective disorder. Restricted and repetitive interests and behavior People with Asperger syndrome often display behavior, interests, and activities that are restricted and repetitive and are sometimes abnormally intense or focused. They may stick to inflexible routines, move in stereotyped and repetitive ways, or preoccupy themselves with parts of objects. Pursuit of specific and narrow areas of interest is one of the most striking features of AS. Individuals with AS may collect volumes of detailed information on a relatively narrow topic such as weather data or star names, without necessarily having genuine understanding of the broader topic. For example, a child might memorize camera model numbers while caring little about photography. This behavior is usually apparent by grade school, typically age 5 or 6 in the United States. Although these special interests may change from time to time, they typically become more unusual and narrowly focused, and often dominate social interaction so much that the entire family may become immersed.

Because narrow topics often capture the interest of children, this symptom may go unrecognized. Stereotyped and repetitive motor behaviors are a core part of the diagnosis of AS and other ASDs. They include hand movements such as flapping or twisting, and complex whole-body movements. These are typically repeated in longer bursts and look more voluntary or ritualistic than tics, which are usually faster, less rhythmical and less often symmetrical. Speech and language Although individuals with Asperger syndrome acquire language skills without significant general delay and their speech typically lacks significant abnormalities, language acquisition and use is often atypical. Abnormalities include verbosity, abrupt transitions, literal interpretations and miscomprehension of nuance, use of metaphor meaningful only to the speaker, auditory perception deficits, unusually pedantic, formal or idiosyncratic speech, and oddities in loudness, pitch, intonation, prosody, and rhythm. Three aspects of communication patterns are of clinical interest: poor prosody, tangential and circumstantial speech, and marked verbosity. Although inflection and intonation may be less rigid or monotonic than in autism, people with AS often have a limited range of intonation: speech may be unusually fast, jerky or loud. Speech may convey a sense of incoherence; the conventional style often includes monologues about topics that bore the listener, fails to provide context for comments, or fails to suppress internal thoughts. Individuals with AS may fail to monitor whether the listener is interested or engaged in the conversation. The speaker's conclusion or point may never be made, and attempts by the listener to elaborate on the speech's content or logic, or to shift to related topics, are often unsuccessful.

Children with AS may have an unusually sophisticated vocabulary at a young age and have been colloquially called "little professors", but have difficulty understanding figurative language and tend to use language literally. Children with AS appear to have particular weaknesses in areas of nonliteral language that include humor, irony, and teasing. Although individuals with AS usually understand the cognitive basis of humor they seem to lack understanding of the intent of humor to share enjoyment with others. Despite strong evidence of impaired humor appreciation, anecdotal reports of humor in individuals with AS seem to challenge some psychological theories of AS and autism. Other Individuals with Asperger syndrome may have signs or symptoms that are independent of the diagnosis, but can affect the individual or the family. These include differences in perception and problems with motor skills, sleep, and emotions. Individuals with AS often have excellent auditory and visual perception. Children with ASD often demonstrate enhanced perception of small changes in patterns such as arrangements of objects or well-known images; typically this is domain-specific and involves processing of fine-grained features. Conversely, compared to individuals with high-functioning autism, individuals with AS have deficits in some tasks involving visual-spatial perception, auditory perception, or visual memory. Many accounts of individuals with AS and ASD report other unusual sensory and perceptual skills and experiences. They may be unusually sensitive or insensitive to sound, light, and other stimuli; these sensory responses are found in other developmental disorders and are not specific to AS or to ASD. There is little support for increased fight-or-flight response or failure of habituation in autism; there is more evidence of decreased responsiveness to sensory stimuli, although several studies show no differences.

Hans Asperger's initial accounts and other diagnostic schemes include descriptions of physical clumsiness. Children with AS may be delayed in acquiring skills requiring motor dexterity, such as riding a bicycle or opening a jar, and may seem to move awkwardly or feel "uncomfortable in their own skin". They may be poorly coordinated, or have an odd or bouncy gait or posture, poor handwriting, or problems with visual-motor integration.  They may show problems with proprioception (sensation of body position) on measures of apraxia (motor planning disorder), balance, tandem gait, and finger-thumb apposition. There is no evidence that these motor skills problems differentiate AS from other high-functioning ASDs. Children with AS are more likely to have sleep problems, including difficulty in falling asleep, frequent nocturnal awakenings, and early morning awakenings. AS is also associated with high levels of alexithymia, which is difficulty in identifying and describing one's emotions. Although AS, lower sleep quality, and alexithymia are associated, their causal relationship is unclear. As with other forms of ASD, parents of children with AS have higher levels of stress.

More about me and my life growing up till now at 35 years of age (when I decided to write this web page). -

I had back then much difficulty is math’s (still do ) along with focus and attention, often the class clown. I found it very difficult to form strong friendships with the other boys at my school Brisbane Boys college. I never liked my schooling years much and spent more time swapping video games with other kids than actually learning anything. I was always playing with other thing’s and was never interested in my lessons as I found them boring and I thought it was far to slow a way for me to learn. now days I learn allot by overwhelming myself with all the data on a subject of interest and working my way through it at my own fast pace. I was often the target of bullying by some other students at school and would make comments that were almost always either off topic or taken the wrong way by others causing them to feel offended, although this was never intended by me. I don’t pick up on social cues well at all, further causing me trouble. I guess as a result of that I no longer know or keep in touch with any of the few good mates I made at school now in my adult life.

I had issues with body motor skills but, was very good at doing hands on stuff like manual arts. While failing terribly at all other subject’s. Asperger’s was not known about when I was a young boy and my parents tried all sorts of odd techniques to help me learn / develop as normally as could be. My constant failed attempt to make friends often saw me meet up and hang out with other problem kids and cause me allot more trouble when the police didn’t like what I would get into. Making me hate the authorities more than the normal amount many of us do. All my senses are extreme to say the least from the headache causing fluorescent lighting to hearing sight and most of all touch, Still to this day I find it hard to wash my feet as they are so sensitive to touch at is almost painful, and touching my feet can result in me hitting a person, as to let them know verbally that I cant take that would take too long indeed, so I will react in such a fashion.

I can’t tell you have many times I would just casually look at somebody only to get a bad reaction like “what are you looking at!” or “you got a problem with your eye’s mate!!” while all the time I was at a loss as to why I would get these harsh reactions. maybe making my problem of avoiding eye contact even worse (like I have guilt or something to hide). This is seen as rude by many in my now adult life witch, by no means is of any help at  all.  Like many boys / girls with this disorder, I too have a very narrow field of interest, that changes a bit over the years, but is always EXTREME. and I have little or no time for anything else. As a small boy, my interest was with motor’s, TV sets, and jewelry. now as an adult, it has been consumed with motorbikes (teaching my self in less than 6 months all there is to know about them and rebuilding them), now I teach my mates that to have motorbikes, how to rebuild / repair their bikes.

As for my great parents, life was VERY hard for them, they did all they could do to help me throughout my life and still do. But for them to see the police drag me home time and time again must have driven them silly! As it would with any good and caring, loving parent who is forced to see their kids go through such traumatic and stressful times. I often felt (and still do) lost in the world I live in. Feeling like I just don’t seem to fit in at all. This causing the issues with this disorder like, depression, anxiety, stress, insomnia and a total ability to fly off the handles from just a small change in my routine be it at home or in a work environment even worse. I have trouble expressing to other people my feeling’s as to sort out any problems I have with others or a situation I was / am faced with at any given time.

As a child and now as an adult, I still have allot of trouble getting to sleep and wake up all the time during the night, making any work I may be lucky enough to have the next day a REAL problem not just for me now, but also for my poor parents that were kept awake all night due to my inability to get sleep as a boy / child. To make maters worse still, doctor’s all seem to have NO idea about this asperger’s syndrome and it’s issues suffers of such are faced with. It would be nice if they could quit speaking a bloody load of rubbish and actually help me and so many others in my boat. but having their head closed at Uni, they think they know it all don’t they?! Well, if I was to put all my faith in them and not trust my own talents and instinct, I would be dead more than two times over by now at 35 years old. what can be said for Doctors? fuck all if you ask me!

Just To Make it a real point... I DO NOT CONDONE THE USE OF ILLEGAL DRUGS AT ALL! - this Site is NOT ABOUT THAT.

This site will contain info on what I’ve found to be good Aspergers medicine for dealing with this disorder be it legal and illegal in the City of Brisbane and the state of Queensland Australia. ONLY my finding’s are on trial medicine page and this site.  Other peoples finding’s are on the Medical Marijuana page. For more info on Asperger’s Synodrome try going to - Aspergers external links page.